Thursday, April 29, 2010
If you know me at all, you know I don't always listen to the coolest music. I just don't have time to find non mainstream music that I like. These things take so much time, and I'm weird and picky about what I like. Honestly though, I think the reason I haven't indieified my playlist is because of pure laziness. While distracting myself with blogs one morning (one of my favorite things to do), I did happen to stumble upon this jazzy bird though. I thought you might enjoy her as well.
I love this song, because it reminds me of those first few months of my relationship with KC. We would always say "I feel you" instead of "I love you" because it was our own cute little thing we did so we didn't overuse that phrase.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
I finally found out how to change my blogger template to a 3 column blog! I've been wanting to know this since I started blogging. All the cool bloggers have one. For some reason (blog design snobbery?) this information is really hard to find, and especially if you don't know squat about HTML. The instructions here were easy enough to follow though. This little lady here helped me figure out how to change my header fonts to lowercase. Good Luck!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Goodbye Dove chocolate bunnies. I'll miss you. Remember when I said I was going to lose at least 20 lbs. before July? yeah. I didn't do so hot in March. If my scale is correct, I did lose about 4 lbs., which isn't bad, but still. Scarfing down cookie cake and pizza is hardly dieting. But I have been a good girl with my little Subway lunches (6 inch turkey on Italian herb and cheese, American cheese, lettuce, cucumber, green peppers, lite mayo, apples, and unsweetened iced tea). 4 pounds is 4 pounds. But when we go to Colorado early July, I want to look hot and not frumpy when I meet KC's friends for the first time. So I gotta step up my game. I can eat fairly healthy, but without keeping track of my calories those chocolate bunnies here and there might kill my progress. Food diaries work. Counting calories works. I'll be adding exercise too. Thanks to the rain, I won't be meeting Sam at 6 am for a jog in the park.
" o how fine to be turning nine "
I can't believe I have a 9 year old! In less than 10 years she'll be an adult. Leaving me to start a life on her own. sniff. Until then...
She had a small and sweet celebration with the family at Shakespeares Pizza. Budget & behavior wouldn't allow the big backyard circus themed BBQ that was originally planned. Tweenage drama at it's finest. Better luck next year? Or perhaps an end of school BBQ? We shall see. Keep your fingers crossed.......we're trying.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
I'm tired of feeling like I don't have enough. I'll never have as much time and money or look like so and so. So why get bummed out with the way life is right now? I'm tired of living off of these silly little daydreams of perfectly imperfect scenarios of my near future life. Whatever it is we strive for is sometimes too much to ask of ourselves, and even if we get that ideal dream, often times it isn't enough. I recently asked a friend of mine who accomplished a major goal of hers if she felt happy now, and the answer was no. Money, beauty, possessions oftentimes aren't enough to make us happy. I have always had this silly little idea in my head like, "when I'm 16 I'll be happy". Well, that soon turned into 18, then 21, then 25, now I'm looking at 30 as being the magic number. It would take quite a lot to make me "happy" according to my daydreams, which honestly aren't that extravagant. All I would really have to do would be..... move into a smaller one level house that I can actually afford, lose 35 pounds, grow my hair out really long, get married, possibly go to college, get a good lawyer to take the ex-husband back to court, move out of
misery Missouri and live somewhere else for once in my life, and have enough money on hand to buy new (or old) clothes, entertainment, and house stuff. That's not asking for too much right? It might not be asking for too much, but it certainly can't happen instantly. We've been programmed to crave action and chaos, and instant gratification feels sooo good. What I often fail to see is that happiness is a choice. As annoying as that sounds, it's true. And the most concentrated form of happiness comes not in the whole picture, but in the itty bitty teeny tiny moments that happen all the time. It's out there happening right now. How much happiness have I been taking for granted? I have beautiful healthy little girls, a great boyfriend that adores me, a house in a good neighborhood, parents that are still alive and still love and take care of me when I need it, friends that I can cry with and laugh until I wet myself with, snuggly kitties that purr when they're around me, my choice of pretty much whatever foods I want every time I eat, ample entertainment when I have time off, a job that allows me to move and be creative.........shall I go on? and on and on and on? If you are out there reading this post in your jammies, snuggled up on your couch or bed, with your coffee, child, dog at your side......think about the happy moments you've been taking for granted. Like the one you're having right now.